Who Knew…?

I would be so friggin’ happy to see my period! Ok, maybe I need to take a step back and explain.

In the breast cancer world, not only do you deal with the regular cancer stuff but you also have to deal with specific female issues. Looks, self-esteem (or lack thereof) and motherhood are all things that have to be dealt with. I just turned 37 when I was diagnosed and was told I may be pushed into and through menopause from the chemo. I was also told that a decision to have another child needed to be made so we can harvest my eggs. I decided not to have my eggs harvested because, to be honest, I couldn’t think that far ahead. As I got into treatment, I was angry that the CHOICE to have another child was being taken away from me without my input. Whether or not I would actually put myself through that toture again is completely besides the point. I wanted the option of having a choice.

So, without being graphic, things happened today and come to find my body has not been pushed through menopause! I can admit, I was very excited. It was almost like my body is getting back to normal! AND I got that choice back!!

Almost.

On the flip side (and with cancer there is ALWAYS a flip side) the presence of my period means there is estrogen flowing in my system. My cancer feeds off estrogen so this is actually a potentially dangerous situation. This could feed into any microscopic cells and become aggressive and turn into my second bout with cancer. Can you say paranoid?

I can’t even describe the emotions running through my head at the point. And don’t want to even try to right now.

Tags: Breast Cancer, children, egg harvesting, female, menopause, period